My Going Home
After those days spent in the hospital, I discharged thinking that was freedom until I got home, and that’s where the trouble really began in my life. My first day home from the hospital was not what I expected, because the infection set in and I got nervous. My husband and children were also afraid about the infection because it begins to pour out of the wound that I had in my belly. It wasn’t a nice sight. I had to be rushed back to the hospital for a second time. Even with all his happening, I was holding to the word which was in my heart “I shall not die, but live, and declare the works of the Lord” (Ps. 118:17).
I was confident in God and that He was going to see me through. I know that Jehovah Rapha is my healer and as I realized this, nothing else mattered. God was going to bring my deliverance. My weakest days were my strongest and the word of God was my meat. I would listen to the word of God everyday and repeat and confess the healing Scriptures over my body and continue to say my confession and to believe Him to bring me out of this situation.
After six weeks, I started to see the progress of God setting me free. The Word of God says in John 8:36 “If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.” Nothing is more foundational to your freedom from Satan’s bondage than understanding and affirming what God has done for you in Christ and who you are as His child. Your attitude, action, response and reactions of life circumstances are greatly affect by you and affirming what God has done for you in Christ, and who you are as His child and your beliefs about yourself as directed in Ephesians 5:19.
If you see yourself as helpless victims of Satan and his schemes, you will live like a victim and you will be in bondage to his lies. Satan is the father of lies and his desire is to wreck you. And if you give in to his lies then you will be defeated.
I had made up my mind to press in for victory. It wasn’t easy because first and foremost you have to win the battle in your mind which is the battle ground. Nothing really comes easy. You have to tell yourself that you are a winner at all times.
My Healing Started
I started reading prophecy Scriptures over my life that Jesus said in His word. Every day I learned how to declare by what comes out of my mouth (positive or negative) faith or unbelief “And I will give unto thee the keys of the kingdom of heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven” (Matthew 16:19). “Thou shalt also decree a thing, and it shall be established unto thee” (Job 2:28). Isaiah 53:4 says: “Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.” Proverbs 3:24 says: “When thou liest down, thou shalt not be afraid: yea, thou shalt lie down, and thy sleep shall be sweet.”
“There remaineth therefore a rest to the people of God. For he that is entered into his rest, he also hath ceased from his own works, as God did from his. Let us labour therefore to enter into that rest, lest any man fall after the same example of unbelief” (Heb. 4: 9-11).
Many times I am encouraged that I am a fighter, and until I started walking in that belief nothing would happen. And I press toward the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. There was a time when I felt as if death was at my door because of all the medication I had to take. One of the main Scriptures that would help me was Psalm 23: 1-6: “The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.”
All of these healing Scriptures were so close to my heart and I would read them and study them every day until the word became a part of me. Many times I had to go for medication and I would sleep for days and could do nothing. And that bothered me because I knew that I was not a lazy person. This would just eat away at me, but my friends told me that I was going to be OK.